Her hallucination
Her hallucination
by Xtra
Summary: A Carter and her Hallucination
Category: Romance
Episode Related: 713 GRACE
Season: any Season
Pairing: Jack/Sam
Rating: G
Warnings: minor language
Disclaimer: Stargate SG-1 and its characters are the property of Showtime/Viacom, MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Productions. I have written this story for entertainment purposes only and no money whatsoever has exchanged hands. No copyright infringement is intended. The original characters, situations, and story are the property of the author(s).
Archived on: 01/21/04
He died. Just in front of me. Just an hour ago. And now I have the worst headache in the world. May have been from when I hit my head on the rock when I nearly fell as well. I think it bleed, but I'm not sure, and it doesn't really mater because he's dead.
"Carter. Wake up" Crap, not again. I thought I had finished with the hallucinations stuck in that damned nebula. "Carter".
"Your dead, sir. Please leave me alone." I can hear the almost confused silence and could picture his brow crumpling up in that so very sweet way it does. " Are you doing the cute brow thing?" I wonder to my hallucination allowed. "I guess you must be, cause you're a figment of my mind, and in my head I like it when you do the confused cute brow thing. So yes. Guess your doing it." If I hadn't just hit my head very hard, and watched the colonel fall off the edge of a ravine into the dark depths of a cave I would have been very disappointed that I was rambling that much out loud. To a hallucination, no less. But it had just happened, so I didn't care.
"You like what?" my hallucination asks, and I manage to crack one eye open enough to see my hallucination. He is now doing the also very cute surprised, eyebrows raised thing, with a little cute brow wrinkle as well. I smile a little.
"That's cute too." Had I not just recently bashed my head and watched my colonel fall off a cliff I would also have been very embarrassed to have use the word "Cute" quite as much as I had in the last few minutes, in my head and to my hallucination. But it had happened, and I couldn't have given a flying crap about my lack of appropriate vocabulary.
"I'm sorry." I say quickly, suddenly needed to telling him, even if it was just in my head. "I tried to catch you" And I did. As the edge fell away into the depths of the ravine I had thrown myself forward, shouting his name, trying to grab hold of his pack, his shoulder, anything to stop him falling. But I hadn't. Instead I had nearly gone over myself, and had hit my head on a rock that had been left sticking out on the hard floor. And later, when I pulled myself to the ravine edge and called his name until I was hoarse, I would have pulled him up, with my pack, my clothes, hell, Id have grown my hair in second if I could have and re-named myself Rapunsel if it could have brought him back. But he didn't respond. And I dragged myself to here. To the side where I could sit and wait, and hope rescue came before I went to sleep. And now, there is just me and my hallucination.
"Carter, talk to me." And I feel my hallucination shaking me. " Stay awake" It was Teal`c who had said that to me last time. I smile a little, remembering what had happened last time my hallucination came to see me.
"I let you into a secret. Jack" I can call him that, cause he told me to last time. "When you came and talked to me on the ship, I kissed you, in my head." I pause, a little confused that I kissed a hallucination from my head, secretly in my head. But I guess the details don't matter.
"Okay." He sounds confused again now. "What ship would that be?"
"When I was in the nebula. Last time I hallucinated you." I would have rolled my eyes as even the Jack in my head is slow, but the impact would be lessened by the fact that my eye lids are almost welded shut by what I think may be blood from my head wound. Another thing I should probably worry about, but I just can't seem to care.
"Your dead." I say suddenly, and start to cry softly. I am so tired, so cold and have realised that my hallucination is the last time I'll see him. "I'm so sorry"
I manage to open my eye just a little, and see the cute face has gone and been replaced by worry. Not a good face, usually means one of us is hurt. "It's okay, Carter. I'm okay"
I wish I could believe him. Even as I start to drift out of consciousness, hearing my hallucination talking to Teal'c through the radio I must also have dreamed, I hope he's right. Maybe, if the warm handed hallucination that's now gently stroking my face and telling me help will be here soon is right, I will have a chance to go back and this time do the smart thing. I can place everything I have on my safe bet.
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