Everything's Gonna Be All Right
by Kelly Mullins
TITLE: Everything's Gonna Be All Right
AUTHOR: Kelly Mullins
EMAIL: kelly.mullins@verizon.net
CATEGORY: Romance, Action/Adventure, Angst, POV, Series, Song/Filk, Thoughts
PAIRING: Sam/Jack
SPOILERS: Small Victories, 5th Race
SEASON / SEQUEL: 4; 9th in the Between Love and Duty Song Fic series
RATING: PG-13
CONTENT WARNINGS: angst, language, male/female relationship, minor character death
SUMMARY: Something went wrong, but what happened?
STATUS: Complete
ARCHIVE: Heliopolis
DISCLAIMER: Stargate SG-1 and its characters are the property of Showtime/Viacom, MGM/UA, Double Secret Productions, and Gekko Productions. We have written this story for entertainment purposes only and no money whatsoever has exchanged hands. No copyright infringement is intended. The original characters, situations, and story are the property of the authors. Not to be archived without permission of the authors.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Song is Everything's Gonna Be All Right by Sweetbox and yeah I know it doesn't completely fit... but hey if you don't know what the song's really about can't you find my meaning in it? Yes this is depressing... they'll get better from now on I swear! <
Thank You: Anyone who sent feedback
Dedication: To the SDR spies- We're SJers, discussing SJ things on an SJ list. Who's the REAL idiot?
*Who ever thought the sun will come crashing down My life in flames My tears complete the pain We fear the end, the dark as deep as river bed*
To me it's hard to see how I've lived though the last five weeks. Lying to Sam, seeing her hurt, is the hardest thing I've ever done, but there really are things more important than our happiness. We now have the entire fate of not only Earth but of all the Asgard too. You know it must be pretty bad when the 'youngest' world in the universe is given command of the Asgard fleet.
*My book of life incomplete without you here Alone I sit and reminisce sometimes
I miss your touch, Your kiss, your smile And meanwhile you know I never cry 'Cause deep down inside you know our love will never ever die*
I miss Sam every night, and everyday, it was hard going in to work and seeing Lydia for those two weeks before we were 'officially' recalled, to know that I was using her, and even worse using her to break Sam's heart... but there was really no other way. Sam wants answers now that I can't give, answers to questions I don't even know my self.
<< It was Friday afternoon when Daniel came to me, I was just sending one of my second grade classes off to lunch.
"Danny, glad you're here, sit down, take a load off."
"Jack, we need you." Daniel says, getting right to the point. "The SGC needs you."
"What do you mean? The SGC said we would never work with them again."
"I was sent here to persuade you to come back."
"We've worked so hard this last year Daniel, we've been struggling just to have food on the table, do you have any idea how hard it is when you've had a dishonourable discharge from the Air Force? We're just now getting enough money to pay back our debts."
"Jack, Thor's dead." That got my attention.>> Those three words turned my world upside down, as did the rest of Daniel's story.
<<"When?"
"The Asgard didn't say; they asked for our help Jack, and Sam's."
"Look Daniel, we're barely surviving out here, if we go back now we'll lose our jobs."
"Is that all you care about? Your jobs? The Jack O'Neill I know wouldn't talk like that, you and Sam made a hard decision, a decision that, in my opinion, was the right one. The government is scared Jack, since SG-1 was broken up things with the Goa'uld have gone from bad to worse, the Asgard were our only defence against an all out planetary attack, and now they have no one left to command their fleet, with Thor over half of the Asgard died, the ones left aren't military.">>
*Everything's gonna be all right Everything's gonna be OK Everything's gonna be all right Together we can take this one day at a time Can you take my breath away? Can you give him life today? Is everything gonna be OK?*
And so the plan came out... the plan that it seemed the entire SGC and Pentagon had all come up with, I don't know why they went to all the trouble when it probably would have been easier to get some white-out and change the regulations. Somehow they got me to go stupidly along with it, all in the name of saving the planet... again.
*I'll be your strength I'll be here when you wake up Take your time And I'll be here when you wake up I never thought my heart will miss a single beat Caress your hand as I watch you while you sleep So smooth*
I'd do anything to go back to how things were, I think this time I may have hurt Sam worse than I ever have before and I'm not sure she'll let me make it up to her. So right now all I can do is just be there... keep her and 'the Carter' safe from the Replicators and the Goa'uld and any other bad-ass enemies the Asgard may have.
*I weep as I search within To find a cure to bring you back again And the sun will rise Open up your eyes Surprised just a blink Of an eye I try, I try to be positive You're a fighter so fight Wake up and live*
I've thought about ways to get us out of this, some magical way to take out the Goa'uld and the Replicators at once... like putting them all on one ship and letting them battle it out, but there's nothing conceivable I can come up with. We're currently trying to forge an alliance with the Furlings and then head out in search of the Ancients. The 'Thor' is equipped with one of those cool de-Goa'ulders but even those just transport the Goa'uld half way across the galaxy only succeeding in pissing them off even more. What I would really like more than anything is to just have one of those Superman moments with Sam, when Superman takes Lois Lane up into space and it's all silent and there's just nothing there but the two of them, of course we'd both be dead if we were just hanging out in space... but it's just the thought of there not being another care in the world at that moment that's so appealing.
*Everything's gonna be all right Everything's gonna be OK Everything's gonna be all right Together we can take this one day at a time Can you take my breath away? Can you give him life today? Is everything gonna be OK?*
If Thor were still alive we would still be at home enjoying our normalcy, and letting everyone else fight for Earth's freedom. It's hard most days to just talk to Carter about where we're taking the Asgard fleet through those little hologram thingies, I usually have to pass the info on to Daniel or Teal'c and then have them report to Sam. I like that we have our own ships to keep us away from each other because I know that if I had to spend more than one night anywhere near her every three weeks or so I know I'd give myself away and she'd know that there never was anything with Lydia and that I'm going back on everything that we decided when we left the SGC.
*Everything's gonna be all right I'd give my life to only see you breathe again Hand in hand as we walk on the white sands To hear your voice Rejoice as you rise and say This is the day that I wake pray OK Today's silence as time just moves on*
Thankfully morning comes and we know we get to go back to our own ships, the Furlings never arrived and our hopes have been dashed... we were told that this was where we'd find them, well actually they'd find us, if we waited around long enough. Teal'c's ship 'beams' him up first, followed by 'the Jackson' wanting Daniel ASAP, which leaves me and Carter, the two highest ranking officials of the Asgard fleet, way more powerful than the USAF by the way, standing around waiting for our ships to get around to noticing it's time for us to come home.
*You can't hear it though But I'm playing my favourite songs I miss you much I wish you'd come back to me You see I waited lifetime 'Cause you're my destiny Everything's gonna be all right Everything's gonna be OK Everything's gonna be all right Together we can take this one day at a time*
I was allowed one year of heaven with Carter, maybe that's all I'm allowed to have, of course I don't like to think of it that way, but I have enough memories of that time when we were together to keep myself comfortable late at night when I'm able to imagine we're still together and she's by my side.
"More searching 'eh?" I ask oddly as we just stand around not looking at one another.
"Yes Sir."
"We'll find them soon, either that or we'll just head out in search of the Ancients with out them."
"Three weeks, three months, three years." She states. "When will we give up? We're not going to have anything left to go home to, everyone will have given us up." She looks at me with hurt in her eyes... ah Lydia again."
"There's nothing at home I need, it's all right here. It's always been right here." I say before kissing her like I did in the old days, before I was forced into this lie and wild goose chase. "We'll never give up our search, and when we find someone to save us we'll go home and retire again and be unspoken heroes." I kiss her again and this time she responds by wrapping her arms around me. I never want to let her go, but war calls, as do our ships, and our duty to our planet and all those depending on us comes first.
END!!
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