First Dance
First Dance
by Rachelle Grubbs
TITLE: First Dance
AUTHOR:Rachelle Grubbs
EMAIL: rachelle_g_20@yahoo.com
CATEGORY: Angst
SPOILERS: None
SEASON / SEQUEL:
RATING: G
CONTENT WARNINGS:
SUMMARY: Jack's thoughts during a dance with Sam. 1st person point of view
ARCHIVE: Sam and Jack Archive, and Heliopolis. All others please ask.
DISCLAIMER: All publicly recognizable characters and places belong to MGM, World Gekko Corp., and Double Secret productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended. Previously unrecognized characters and places, and this story, are copyrighted to the author. Any similarity to real people, living or dead is coincidental and not intended by the author. The Song in this story doesn't belong to me either. 'Destiny' belongs to Jim Brickman with Jordan Hill and Billy Porter. No infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Well when I bought my new CD two of the songs just jumped out at me and screamed to be in a story, and since I hadn't written my response to the Kiss Challenge I thought they would be perfect to use. This is the first of two stories. The second one is my Kiss Challenge response. (To be posted right after this one). This story is strictly from Jack's POV and is all angst. But never fear, Ness hasn't gotten to me yet, the sequel to this does have a happy ending. *g* Feedback is always appreciated. The gold star of the day to my beta reader Wendy, who I wouldn't know what to do with out. And of course dedicated to Shipper, Kaila, Ang, and Michmell who are wonderful sounding boards and keepers of my sanity. Love you!
~ Indicates song lyrics
'Why am I here?' I think, as I again played with the collar on my dress uniform. 'I hate these Air Force Balls and I hate having to wear this uniform!'
Daniel was sitting next to me, talking non-stop about some rock SG-5 had brought back from their last mission. I wasn't paying attention to anything Daniel was saying, but nodded my head to let him think I was. No, I was here because General Hammond had ordered all the SG teams to attend, and my 'attention' was definitely focused elsewhere. Focused on the beautiful five foot ten blonde sitting across the table from me.
Beautiful. That didn't even begin to describe how Sam looked. I rarely saw her in anything but her military fatigues, which don't get me wrong, I think she looks good in, but they were nothing compared to the dress she was wearing tonight. My Jaw had hit the floor when she had entered the room that night and I wasn't the only one to notice. She had been asked by most of the men in the room, at some point or another, for a dance and she had obliged. She had sat the last two out in order to sit and talk with Janet, and personally I was grateful she did.
I tried not to stare too much, although Janet had already caught me several times. She never said
anything just returned to her hushed conversation with Sam and I continued to pretend to be listening to Daniel.
A loud noise broke into my thoughts, the sound of a chair scraping across the floor. A new song was starting and Daniel had asked Janet to dance with him.
Panic filled my head at being left alone with Sam. 'Jack your acting like an eight-year-old. She won't bite. Your friends remember?' I was so caught up in my thoughts that I missed the conspiratorial smile that passed between Daniel and Janet as they left the table. 'Just breathe, Jack' my mind admonished me.
The words of the song broke through my thoughts.
~What if I never knew
What if I never found you
I'd never have this feeling in my heart
I saw Ferretti walking in our direction. Before my mind could object I was on his feet and stepped over to Sam. I held my hand out to her. "May I?" I asked. She looked up at me and I could see the surprise in her beautiful blue eyes. She didn't say anything, just slipped her hand into mine and allowed me to lead her to the floor.
~How did this come to be
I don't know how you found me
~But from the moment I saw you
Deep inside my heart I knew
The rush I felt when she had slipped her hand into mine is nothing compared to the feeling I get as I take her in my arms. Not letting go of her hand, I slide my free arm around her waist as her free arm slips around my neck. I pull her close, and note that the heels she is wearing give her just a little extra height and so she fits perfectly against me.
~Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart & soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be, my destiny
'Destiny' I think. It is a possibility. 'It's against regulations!' my brain pleads, desperately trying to
regain control of the situation. 'Shut up' I tell it. I know he couldn't have her, no matter how badly I want to, but I'm not going to give this up.
~I wanted someone like you
Someone that I could hold on to
And give my love until the end of time
I feel Sam move a little closer, and I tighten my arm around her in response. I move my other hand to intertwine her fingers with my own. I take a deep breath and softly sighed. I smile softly; I can smell her shampoo. It is a scent I love, and it is distinctly, Sam.
~But forever was just a word
Something I'd only heard about
~But now you're always there for me
When you say forever I believe
'Forever is just a word' I think. I'd believed in forever when I married Sara and it didn't happen. Charlie had died and forever ended. And then Sam walked into my life. Maybe I could believe in forever again.
~Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart & soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
You were always meant to be, my destiny
Sam shifts again. She doesn't pull away, just moves her head so she's looking at me. I give her a gentle smile as I try not to get lost in her eyes. As I look into her eyes, I can see the questions there, questions that are fighting a battle with her desire to not have this song end. 'Uh... A little transference, happening here Jack' his mind asks.
~Maybe all we need, is just a little faith
'Cause baby I believe that love will find the way
'You gave me my faith back, Sam' I silently tell her. Maybe someday I can tell her all of this, but for now I just have to be content with her friendship. She returns my smile and places her head back on my shoulder. Holding her a little tighter I gently rest my head against hers.
~Baby you're my destiny
You and I were meant to be
With all my heart & soul
I give my love to have and hold
And as far as I can see
From now until eternity
You were always meant to be, my destiny
The song ends and we reluctantly pull apart, reality setting in. We are once again Colonel and Captain. Once again bound by military rules and regulation. Once again just friends. She smiles at me and places a gentle kiss on my cheek.
"Thanks for the dance" she whispers in my ear
I return the smile and take hold of her hand and lead her off the floor. Daniel and Janet are already back and the table and once again I miss the knowing smile that passes between them. Janet stands and she and Sam walk off whispering and laughing and I wonder briefly what they're talking about as I take my seat next to Daniel.
'Maybe it wasn't so bad having to come after all' I think as Daniel once again starts telling me about some other new rock that had been found.
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